Wednesday, December 8, 2010

I, myself am distraction





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Suppose that my “poverty” be a hunger for spiritual riches: 
suppose that by pretending to empty myself, pretending to be silent, 
I am really trying to cajole God into enriching me with some experience 
— what then?
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Then everything becomes a distraction. 
All created things interfere with my quest for some special experience. 
I must shut them out, or they will tear me apart.
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What is worst — I, myself am distraction. 
But, unhappiest of all — if my prayer is centered in myself, 
if it seeks only an enrichment of my own self, 
my prayer will be my greatest potential distraction.
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Full of my own curiosity, 
I have eaten of the tree of Knowledge and 
torn myself away from myself and God.
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I am left rich and alone and nothing can assuage my hunger: 
everything I touch turns into distraction.
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~ Thomas Merton
from Thoughts In Solitude
sketch by the author
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