Saturday, March 27, 2021

annals of T'AI CHI: "Push Hands"

 
 
 

 
 
In this long routine "Push Hands,"
one recognizes force and yields, then 
slides, again, again, endless like water,
what goes away, what follows, aggressive
courtesy till force must always lose,
lost in the seethe and retreat of the ocean.
 
So does the sail fill, and air come
just so, because of what's gone, "Yes"
in all things, "Yes, come in if you
insist," and thus conducted find a way
out,  yin following and becoming  
by a beautiful absence it's partner yang
 
 
 
~ William Stafford
from Poetry, Sept. 1992
 
 
 

Sunday, March 21, 2021

choices

 
 
 

 
 
 
What we ordinarily mean by choice is not freedom.
 Choices are usually decisions motivated by pleasure and pain,
 and the divided mind acts with the sole purpose 
of getting “I” into pleasure and out of pain. 
 
But the best pleasures are those for which we do not plan, 
and the worst part of pain is expecting it
 and trying to get away from it when it has come. 
 
  when I try to act and decide in order to be happy,
 when I make “being pleased” my future goal.
 
 For the more my actions 
are directed towards future pleasures, 
the more I am incapable
of enjoying any pleasures at all.
 
 For all pleasures are present, 
and nothing save complete awareness of the present 
can even begin to guarantee future happiness.

It seems that if I am afraid, then I am “stuck” with fear.
 But in fact I am chained to the fear only so long as I am trying to get away from it.
 
 On the other hand, when I do not try to get away I discover 
that there is nothing “stuck” or fixed about the reality of the moment.
 
 When I am aware of this feeling without naming it, without calling it “fear,”
 “bad,” “negative,” etc., it changes instantly into something else,
 and life moves freely ahead. The feeling no longer perpetuates itself...
 

The further truth that the undivided mind is aware of experience as a unity,
 of the world as itself, and that the whole nature of mind and awareness 
is to be one with what it knows, suggests a state that would usually be called love…
 
 Love is the organizing and unifying principle which makes the world a universe
 and the disintegrated mass a community. It is the very essence and character
 of mind, and becomes manifest in action when the mind is whole… 
This, rather than any mere emotion, 
is the power and principle of free action.
 
 
 
 
 ~ Alan Watts
from The Wisdom of Insecurity
art by Van Gogh
with thanks to brainpickings




outside the court of religious and civic opinion

 
 
 

 
 

The greatest prophet of the Jewish tradition, Moses, 
had the prescience and courage to move the place of hearing God outside
 and at a distance from the court of common religious and civic opinion—
 
this was the original genius that inspired the entire Jewish prophetic tradition.
 It is quite different than mere liberal and conservative positions, 
and often even at odds with them. 
 
Prophecy and Gospel are rooted in a contemplative
 and non-dual way of knowing—
a way of being in the world that is utterly free
 and grounded in the compassion of God.

how we might maintain that same sense of prophetic freedom
 outside the contemporary political and religious “encampments” of our day.
 
 For those of us who are sincerely and devotedly trying to camp elsewhere
 than in any political party or religious denomination, 
we know full well that we must now avoid the temptation
 to become our own defended camp.

it means that we can
 “safeguard that little piece of You, God, in ourselves” 
as Etty Hillesum describes it.
 
 
 
 
~ Richard Rohr
excerpt from his Daily Meditation
 photo by Dorothea Lange


 
 

Thursday, March 18, 2021

the music that is always there




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When I used to wake with night sweats my mind would spin in endless loops of anxiety,
 going over little irresolvable problems, like a miser counting pennies, unable to stop, to sleep.
 Even when I told myself there was truly nothing to worry about, and believed it,
 still, the wild worries persisted. The ghosts of these attacks haunted me for years.


Sometimes it's okay. 
Sometimes it's not one desperate act after another.
Sometimes we hear the music that is always there. As the old Irish homily goes:

"The most beautiful music is the music of what happens."

It is not necessary to run to a remote, quiet place to hear it. 
It is here already, always.
The essence of eternity is how we experience the present.
The witnesses are here in ourselves.
The fullness of our inheritance denies nothing.


The ravaged road goes on and on
in both directions.
Who can I ask to buy the bones?

Snow settles on hemlock and Yew.
This is enough.
To the end of my days
Without end amen.




~ Terrance Keenan
from Zen Encounters with Loneliness



not an imitation

 
 

 
 
I’ve come to see that the call of God, the love that bids us welcome, 
is always a call to become the true you. Not a doormat. The true you.
 Not an imitation of someone else. The true you:
 someone made in the image of God, 
deserving of and receiving love.
 
There is a Jewish proverb, 
“Before every person there marches an angel proclaiming, 
‘Behold, the image of God.’”
 
 Unselfish, sacrificial living isn’t about ignoring or denying or destroying yourself.
 It’s about discovering your true self—the self that looks like God—
and living life from that grounding. 
 
Many people are familiar with a part of Jesus’s summary of the law of Moses:
 You shall love your neighbor as you love yourself.
 
 Yourself. Loving the self is a required balance.
 If we fail in that, we fail our neighbor, too. 
 
To love your neighbor is to relate to them as someone made in the image of God.
 And it is to relate to yourself as someone made in the image of God.
 It’s God, up, down, and all around, and God is love.

The ability to love yourself is intimately related to your capacity to love others. 
The challenge is creating a life that allows you to fulfill both needs. . . .
 
 
 
 
 ~ Bishop Michael Curry
found here in  Richard Rohr's Daily Meditation
 
 
 
 

Sunday, March 14, 2021

on being

 
 
 
 



 
~ John O'Donohue
 
 
 
 

kindness

 
 
 

 
 
 
~ Naomi Shihab Nye 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, March 13, 2021

a natural delight

 
 

 


The Diamond Sutra says,
"Out of nowhere, the mind comes forth."
 
 
A story of understanding coming out of nowhere.
 
Some of the old school buildings in Los Angeles had high ceilings
and clerestory windows. A boy was sitting at his little chair in 
kindergarten when he saw the yellow light coming in through the
high windows. Dust motes swirled in the beam of light. He noticed
how bright they were and kept watching; then, suddenly there was
no distance between him and the light. He disappeared. He didn't 
know how long he was gone; there was no time. When he heard a
voice calling, he didn't recognize the name at first; it didn't have
anything to do with him. Then he heard the other children 
laughing and wondered what they were laughing about.
It was the teacher calling him. After that, the things he saw
were beautiful in themselves.  Faces seemed more real, and 
what was real was beautiful.  He didn't really have a name 
anymore; he was the beam of light.  And it didn't have to be a
beam of light.  It could be a Coke can or another child, and he
feel that connection. His sense of yours and mine had shifted
to something like, "My hamburger is yours, your house is mine."
When the grownups around him fought and argued, he felt sad
for them, that they didn't understand, and couldn't see what he 
could see.

Usually people work hard to make things happen. 
Yet it might be that things happen by themselves, coming out of nowhere.

When you forget your carefully assembled fiction of who you are, 
you can find a natural delight in people, in the planet, the stones, and the trees.
 There is no observable limit to this beauty, and no one is excluded from it. 
 
Then, if you are fighting an enemy, 
you may be fighting them as well as you can,
 but you won’t be a true believer. 
 
You will know that an enemy is not truly other
 and that the fighting is some kind of misunderstanding. 
The worries that lead to quarrels may still be present,
 but they are not the main thing.

Your problems could be a kind of dream, 
very powerful when you are in it, and yet a dream. 
You might notice that, even deep in dreaming, 
you are near to waking up.
 
 And the more you are awake,
 the kinder the world might seem.
 


~ John Tarrant
from Bring Me The Rhinoceros
and other Zen Koans that will save your life
 photo Buddha's Footprints, by Peter Adams
with thanks to Love is a Place
 

Wednesday, March 10, 2021

keep letting go







‎Non-aggression doesn't mean that you're not supposed to get angry; 
it doesn't mean that you're not supposed to set boundaries;
 it doesn't mean that you're not supposed to be sharp;
 it doesn't mean that you don't have neurotic upheavals and meltdowns. 
 
What it does mean is that we have to keep letting go -
 until we are naked with ourselves,
 and we are making room for the person we actually are.
 
 And it's the exact same process with other people. 
We have to let go, let go, let go . . . Until we see and we are seen.
 
 
 

  ~ Reggie Ray
art by banksy


departure







To go forth now
from all the entanglement
that is ours and yet not ours,
that, like the water in an old well,
reflects us in fragments, distorts what we are.
 
From all that clings like burrs and brambles—
to go forth
and see for once, close up, afresh,
what we had ceased to see—
so familiar it had become.
 
To glimpse how vast and how impersonal
is the suffering that filled your childhood.
Yes, to go forth, hand pulling away from hand.
 
Go forth to what? To uncertainty,
to a country with no connections to us
and indifferent to the dramas of our life.
 
What drives you to go forth? Impatience, instinct,
a dark need, the incapacity to understand.
 
To bow to all this.
To let go—
even if you have to die alone.
Is this the start of a new life?






~ Rainer Maria Rilke
excerpt from  The Prodigal Son, 
The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge
art by Ruth Norman






Tuesday, March 9, 2021

no longer seeks





This Soul... no longer seeks God through penitence, 
nor through any sacrament of Holy Church; 
not through thought, nor through words, nor through works;
 not through creature here below, nor through creature above; 
not through justice, nor through mercy; not through glory of glory; 
not through divine understanding, nor though divine love,
 nor through divine praise.

...Such a Soul neither desires nor despises poverty nor tribulation, 
neither mass nor sermon, neither fast nor prayer,
 and gives to Nature all that is necessary,
 without remorse of conscience.  

But such nature is so well ordered through
 the transformation by unity of Love,
 to whom the will of this Soul is conjoined,
 that nature demands nothing which is prohibited.
...

Such a Soul often hears what she hears not,
and often sees what she sees not,
and so often she is there where she is not,
and so often she feels what she feels not.





~ Marguerite Porete
from The Mirror of Simple Souls

On the first of June 1310 at the Place de Grève in Paris, 
Marguerite Porete was burned at the stake,
 enduring what the great nineteenth-century historian of the Inquisition,
 H. C. Lea, called the first formal auto-da-fé in Paris.
 
 Condemned as a relapsed heretic, Marguerite accepted her fate calmly 
and without fear, and she was regarded with great admiration 
by those who witnessed her death, many of whom burst into tears
 during the execution. Her condemnation came as the result
 of her unwillingness to discuss or denounce the teachings
 found in her great mystical work the Mirror of Simple Souls,
 which was written in Old French. Although judged heretical,
 the Mirror was a work of great popularity and influence
 during the fourteenth and fifteenth centuries and beyond.




a lesson in drawing







My son places his paint box in front of me
and asks me to draw a bird for him.
Into the color gray I dip the brush
and draw a square with locks and bars.
Astonishment fills his eyes:
'… But this is a prison, Father,
Don't you know, how to draw a bird?'
And I tell him: 'Son, forgive me.
I've forgotten the shapes of birds.'

My son puts the drawing book in front of me
and asks me to draw a wheatstalk.
I hold the pen
and draw a gun.
My son mocks my ignorance,
demanding,
'Don't you know, Father, the difference between a
wheatstalk and a gun?'
I tell him, 'Son,
once I used to know the shapes of wheatstalks
the shape of the loaf
the shape of the rose
But in this hardened time
the trees of the forest have joined
the militia men
and the rose wears dull fatigues
In this time of armed wheatstalks
armed birds
armed culture
and armed religion
you can't buy a loaf
without finding a gun inside
you can't pluck a rose in the field
without its raising its thorns in your face
you can't buy a book
that doesn't explode between your fingers.'

My son sits at the edge of my bed
and asks me to recite a poem,
A tear falls from my eyes onto the pillow.
My son licks it up, astonished, saying:
'But this is a tear, father, not a poem!'
And I tell him:
'When you grow up, my son,
and read the diwan of Arabic poetry
you'll discover that the word and the tear are twins
and the Arabic poem
is no more than a tear wept by writing fingers.'

My son lays down his pens, his crayon box in
front of me
and asks me to draw a homeland for him.
The brush trembles in my hands
and I sink, weeping. 




~ Nizar Qabbani


Born on this date in Damascus, Syria (1923). His mother, who was illiterate, sold her jewelry to raise money to publish his first anthology, Childhood of a Bosom (1948), and he went on to become the most popular Arab poet and to publish more than 20 books of poetry. Much of his poetry was influenced by the tragic deaths of two women he loved. When he was 15, his older sister committed suicide rather than be forced into marriage with a man she did not love, and he turned his attention to the situation of Arab women. He wrote romantic, sensual poems and poetry demonstrating the need for sexual equality and women's rights. Many years later, in 1981, his second wife, an Iraqi woman, died during the Lebanese Civil War when the Iraqi Embassy was bombed. Qabbani was grief-stricken and frustrated with the political and cultural climate of the Arab world, and he lived in Europe for the rest of his life.  He died April 30, 1998.


~ comments from writers almanac




Monday, March 8, 2021

empty as the open sky

 
 
 


 
 
 
Contemplating the clear moon
Reflecting a mind empty as the open sky -
 
Drawn by it's beauty,
I lose myself
In the shadows it casts.
 
 
 
~ Dogen
from The Zen Poetry of Dogen
 
 
 
 
 

Saturday, March 6, 2021

the inclination of the mind

 
 



 

Whatever a person frequently thinks and reflects on, 
that will become the inclination of their mind.

~ Buddha

Speak and act from unwise thoughts, 
and sorrow will follow you as surely as the wheel follows the ox who draws the cart.
 
 Speak and act from wise thoughts 
and happiness will follow you as closely as your shadow, unshakable. 
 
~ The Dhammapada

Whatever we regularly think colors our experience—all day, every day.
 Once we start to watch these thoughts, we discover that 90% of them are reruns!
 
 Others are about problems:
 “I need to call John about the roof again. I hope he can finally fix it.”
 
 Some are about our preferences: 
“I like the way this person talks.” “I really hate this traffic.” 
Many are worry or self-evaluation: “Oops, I’m messing up again. 
How do I get through this?” “Wow, I pulled that off well. I hope it was noticed!”

Our life is shaped and determined by our thoughts. 
Usually we are only half conscious of the way thoughts direct our life;
 we are lost in thoughts as if they are reality. 
 
We take our own mental creations quite seriously,
 endorsing them without reservation.
 
Often our fears don’t turn out to be accurate predictions of anything.
 As Mark Twain put it,
 
 “My life has been filled with terrible misfortunes—
most of which never happened!”

With the letting go of unhealthy thoughts, there arises a space, a calm, 
an opening to add healthy thoughts of love and self-respect. 
With all the dignity, courage and tenderness you possess,
 say from your heart phrases of loving-kindness such as:
 
 “May I be filled with compassion for myself and others.
 May I hold myself with care and respect. 
May I treasure my life.
 May I be filled with kindness.” 
 
Plant these loving thoughts, water these seeds of well-being, 
over and over until they take root in your heart and mind.
 
 
 
 
 ~ Jack Kornfield
Australian aboriginal art



Friday, March 5, 2021

unmoored





.

Unmoored
in midnight water,
no waves, no wind,
the empty boat
is flooded with moonlight.



~ Dogen