Monday, July 13, 2020

the longing






The sweetest thing in all my life 
has been the longing - to reach the Mountain, 
to find the place where all the beauty came from - 
my country, the place where I ought to have been born. 
Do you think it all meant nothing, all the longing? 
The longing for home? 
For indeed it now feels not like going, 
but like going back.




~ C.S. Lewis


a secret thread







 
 
 
You may have noticed that the books you really love are bound together by a secret thread. 
You know very well what is the common quality that makes you love them,
 though you cannot put it into words: but most of your friends do not see it at all,
 and often wonder why, liking this, you should also like that.
 
 Again, you have stood 
before some landscape, which seems to embody what you have been looking for
 all your life; and then turned to the friend at your side who appears to be seeing 
what you saw - but at the first words a gulf yawns between you, and you realize
that this landscape means something totally different to him, that he is pursuing 
an alien vision and cares nothing for the ineffable suggestion by which you 
are transported.
 
 Even in your hobbies, has there not always been some secret
 attraction which the others are curiously ignorant of - something, not to 
be identified with, but always on the verge of breaking through, 
the smell of cut wood in the workshop
 or the clap-clap of water against the boat’s side?


Are not all lifelong friendships born at the moment when at last you meet
 another human being who has some inkling (but faint and uncertain 
even in the best) of that something which you were born desiring, 
and which, beneath the flux of other desires and in all the momentary silences
 between the louder passions, night and day, year by year, from childhood 
to old age, you are looking for, watching for, listening for? You have never had it. 
 
 
All the things that have ever deeply possessed your soul have been but hints
 of it - tantalizing glimpses, promises never quite fulfilled, echoes that died away
 just as they caught your ear. But if it should really become manifest - if there ever
 came an echo that did not die away but swelled into the sound itself 
you would know it.
 
 Beyond all possibility of doubt you would say
 “Here at last is the thing I was made for.” We cannot tell each other about it. 
It is the secret signature of each soul, the incommunicable and unappeasable
 want, the thing we desired before we met our wives or made our friends
 or chose our work, and which we shall still desire on our deathbeds, 
when the mind no longer knows wife or friend or work. While we are,
 this is. If we lose this, we lose all.




~ C.S. Lewis
from The Problem of Pain
art by Stushie
with thanks to Love is a Place
 
 
 

Saturday, July 11, 2020

from Saint Francis and the Sow






The bud
stands for all things,
even for those things that don’t flower,
for everything flowers, from within, of self-blessing;   
though sometimes it is necessary
to reteach a thing its loveliness,
to put a hand on its brow
of the flower
and retell it in words and in touch
it is lovely
until it flowers again from within, of self-blessing;  


~ Galway Kinnell 



Friday, July 10, 2020

water and ice






There is no place to put the mind. 
A certain person once said, "No matter where I put my mind,
 my intentions are held in check in the place where my mind goes,
 and I lose to my opponent. Because of that, I place my mind 
just below my navel and do not let it wander. Then am I able to change
 according to the actions of my opponent." This is reasonable.

 But viewed from the highest standpoint of Buddhism, putting the mind 
just below the navel and not allowing it to wander is a low level
 of understanding, not a high one. It is at the level of discipline 
and training. It is at the level of seriousness. Or of Mencius' saying,
 "Seek after the lost mind." This is not the highest level either.
 It has the sense of seriousness. As for the "lost mind,"
 I have written about this elsewhere, and you can take a look at it there. 
If you consider putting your mind below your navel and not letting it wander, 
your mind will be taken by the mind that thinks of this plan.

You will have no ability to move ahead and will be exceptionally unfree.
 This leads to the next question, "If putting my mind below my navel
 leaves me unable to function and without freedom, it is of no use.
 In what part of my body, then, should I put my mind?" I answered,
 "If you put it in your right hand, it will be taken by the right hand
 and your body will lack its functioning. If you put your mind in the eye, 
it will be taken by the eye, and your body will lack its functioning.
 If you put your mind in your right foot, your mind will be taken by
 the right foot and your body will lack its functioning.

 "No matter where you put it, if you put the mind in on place,
 the rest of your body will lack its functioning."
 "Well, then, where does one put his mind." I answered,
 "If you don't put it anywhere, it will go to all parts of your body
 and extend throughout its entirety. In this way, when it enters your hand,
 it will realize the hand's function. When it enters your foot, it will realize
 the foot's function. When it enters your eye, 
it will realize the eye's function. 



Putting the mind in one place is called falling into onesidedness.
 One-sidedness is said to be bias in one place. Correctness is in moving
 about anywhere. The Correct Mind shows itself by extending the mind 
throughout the body. It not biased in any one place. When the mind is biased
 in one place and lacking in another, it is called a one-sided mind.
 One-sidedness is despicable. To be arrested by anything, no matter what, 
is falling into one-sidedness and is despised by those travelling the Way. 


The Right Mind is the mind that does not remain in one place. 
It is the mind that stretches throughout the entire body and self.
 The Confused Mind is the mind that, thinking something over,
 congeals in one place. When the Right Mind congeals and settles
 in one place, it becomes what is called the Confused Mind. 

When the Right Mind is lost, it is lacking in function here and there.
 For this reason, it is important not to lose it. In not remaining in one place,
 the Right Mind is like water. The Confused Mind is like ice, 
and ice is unable to wash hands or head. When ice is melted, it becomes water 
and flows everywhere, and it can wash the hands, the feet or anything else. 

If the mind congeals in one place and remains with one thing,
 it is like frozen water and is unable to be used freely: ice that can wash 
neither hands nor feet. When the mind is The Unfettered Mind –
 Writings of the Zen Master to the Sword Master melted and is used like water,
 extending throughout the body, it can be sent wherever one wants to send it.
 This is the Right Mind. 




~ Takuan Soho
from The Unfettered Mind:
 writings of the Zen Master to the Sword Master 
translated by William Scott Wilson







Thursday, July 9, 2020

his peaceful death and his insight







 

excerpts from:

Henry David Thoreau

Henry Thoreau as Remembered by a Young Friend
Edward Emerson, (1917)


 


Thoreau was but forty-four years old when he died.
 Even his health could not throw off a chill got by long stooping
 in a wet snow storm counting the growth-rings on the stumps of some old trees.
 The family infection became active. He lived a year and a half 
after this exposure and made a trip to Minnesota in vain for health.

 For the last months he was confined to the house, he was affectionate,
 and utterly brave, and worked on his manuscript until the last days.
 When his neighbour, Reverend Mr. Reynolds, came in
 he found him so employed, and he looked up cheerfully and, 
with a twinkle in his eye, whispered -- his voice was gone --
 "you know it's respectable to leave an estate to one's friends "
His old acquaintance Staples, once his jailer,
 coming out, meeting Mr. Emerson coming in, reported that he
 "never saw a man dying with so much pleasure and peace." 

To his Calvinistic Aunt who felt obliged to ask,
 "Henry, have you made your peace with God?" -- 
"I did not know we had ever quarreled, Aunt," 
was the pleasant answer. 

His friend and companion, Edward Hoar, 
said to me, "With Thoreau's life something went out of Concord woods
 and fields and river that never will return. He so loved Nature,
 delighted in her every aspect and seemed to infuse himself into her." 
Yes, something went. But our woods and waters will always be different
 because of this man. Something of him abides and truly "for good"
 in his town. Here he was born, and within its borders he found 
a wealth of beauty and interest -- 
all that he asked -- 
and shared it with us all.


...


Thoreau writes: "Explore your own higher latitudes; nay,
 be a Columbus to whole new continents and worlds within you, 
opening new channels, not of trade, but of thought.
 Every man is lord of a realm beside which the earthly empire of the Czar
 is but a petty state. I do not wish to be any more busy with my hands 
than is necessary. My head is hands and feet. I feel all my best faculties
 concentrated in it. My instinct tells me that my head is an organ for burrowing,
 as some creatures use their snout and fore-paws, and with it I would mine
 and burrow my way through these hills. I think that the richest vein 
is somewhere hereabouts: so by the divining rod and thin rising vapours
 I judge: and here I will begin to mine."

Again: "If my curve is large, why bend it to a smaller circle?"

Emerson wrote of Thoreau:
 "He who sees the horizon may securely say what he pleases
 of any twig or tree between him and it."


Thoreau, living by Walden wrote:
 "In a pleasant spring morning all men's sins are forgiven. 
Such a day is a truce to vice. While such a sun holds out to burn,
 the vilest sinner may return. Through our own recovered innocence
 we discern the innocence of our neighbors. You may have known
 your neighbour yesterday for a thief, a drunkard, or a sensualist, 
and merely pitied or despised him, and despaired of the world;
 but the sun shines bright and warm this spring morning, 
recreating the world, and you meet him at some serene work, 
and see how his exhausted and debauched veins expand with still joy
 and bless the new day, feel the spring influence with the innocence 
of infancy, and all his faults are forgotten. There is not only an atmosphere 
of goodwill about him, but even a savour of holiness groping for expression,
 blindly and ineffectually perhaps, like a new-born instinct, 
 and for a short hour the south hill-side echoes to no vulgar jest. 
You see some innocent fair shoots preparing to burst from his gnarled rind 
 and try another year's life, tender and fresh as the youngest plant. 
Even he has entered into the joy of his lord. 
Why the jailer does not leave open his prison doors, -- 
why the judge does not dismiss his case, --
 why the preacher does not dismiss his congregation.
 It is because they do not obey the hint that God gives them, 
nor accept the pardon that he freely offers to all."

  He loved the River: "It is my own highway, the only wild 
and unfenced part of the world hereabouts.
" But always he looked for something behind what he saw. 
At another time he writes: "Time is but the stream I go a-fishing in.
 I drink at it, but while I drink I see the sandy bottom and detect
 how shallow it is. Its thin current glides away, but eternity remains.
 I would drink deeper; fish in the sky whose bottom
 is pebbly with stars."


...

 
  The news of Thoreau's death came to Louisa Alcott, 
then nursing in a military hospital. In the watches of the night, 
sitting by the cot of a dying soldier, her thoughts wandered back 
to the happy evenings when Thoreau might bring his flute with him 
to please the growing girls, when he visited the elders; that yellow flute, 
very melodious in its tone, which his brother John used to play. 
In these sad surroundings she wrote: --
Thoreau's Flute We sighing said, "Our Pan is dead --
His pipe hangs mute beside the river,
Around it friendly moonbeams quiver,
But music's airy voice is fled.
Spring comes to us in guise forlorn,
The blue-bird chants a requiem,
The willow-blossom waits for him,
The genius of the wood is gone"
Then from the flute, untouched by hands,
There came a low, harmonious breath:
For such as he there is no death.
His life the eternal life commands.
Above men's aims his nature rose.
The wisdom of a just content
Made one small spot a continent,
And turned to poetry life's prose
Haunting the hills, the stream, the wild,
Swallow and aster, lake and pine
To him seemed human or divine,
Fit mates for this large-hearted child.
Such homage Nature ne'er forgets;
And yearly on the coverlid
'Neath which her darling lieth hid
Will write his name in violets.
To him no vain regrets belong
Whose soul, that finer instrument,
Gave to the world no poor lament,
But wood-notes ever sweet and strong.
Oh lonely friend, He still will be
A potent presence, though unseen,
Steadfast, sagacious and serene.
Seek not for him: he is with Thee.

...

  The friendship and honour one for the other ran true to the end, 
in spite of temperamental barriers in communication.
 Emerson spoke his feeling about his friend at the burial: -- 

"The Country knows not yet, or in the least part how great a son it has lost. 
It seems an injury that he should leave, in the midst, his broken task, 
which none can finish, a kind of indignity to so noble a soul 
that he should depart out of Nature before yet he has been really shown
 to his peers for what he is. But he, at least, is content.
 His soul was made for the noblest society; he had in a short life
 exhausted the capabilities of this world: wherever there is knowledge,
 wherever there is virtue, wherever there is beauty,
 he will find a home."



the entire transcript found here:
https://archive.vcu.edu/english/engweb/transcendentalism/authors/thoreau/youngfriend.html




Tuesday, July 7, 2020

without identity









~ Joseph Goldstein



 

a community at peace with itself






The first discipline of non-violence is to honor every human
being as a unique soul-body, refusing to identify them by
race, gender, religion, or political party.

Yet just as much as right-wing movements, today's "progressive"
movement often promotes conflict and division by labeling
individual Persons by their group identity. Some of us who
talk about "diversity" actually stifle it, because real diversity
is not to promote tribalism or nationalism, but to recognize
the incomparable unique Personhood of individuals.
As it also says in the Declaration of Independence.

It is much easier to hate a category than a Person, whether
your animosity is toward Muslims or Christians, "black people",
or "white people", liberals or conservatives.

The beginning of world peace is to free each human soul-body
from racial, political, or religious abstractions. Our incidental
association with a group is not who we really are.

I do not identify my Self Eternal Being as a color, as rich
or poor, capitalist or socialist, Republican or Democrat,
Christian or Pagan or American. I am neither "good" nor
"evil." Those are just conceptual chains with which your mind
attempts to enthrall me. But I am not your concept of me:
you are.

If you want to superimpose a group identity on me, that is your
act of violence against the singularity of my Personhood. You
are free to label me, but I am also free... I refuse to identify with
your label...
I Am who I Am...



~ Fred LaMotte
 art by Picasso 
  with thanks to mystic meanderings

 We adopt the means of nonviolence because
 our end is a community at peace with itself.

 ~ Martin Luther King Jr.





no leaders, please






invent yourself and then reinvent yourself,
don't swim in the same slough.
invent yourself and then reinvent yourself and
stay out of the clutches of mediocrity.

invent yourself and then reinvent yourself,
change your tone and shape so often that they can never categorize you.

reinvigorate yourself and
accept what is
but only on the terms that you have invented
and reinvented.

be self-taught.

and reinvent your life because you must;
it is your life and
its history
and the present
belong only to
you.



~ Charles Bukowski


now



.


By making peace with the present moment....That present moment
 is the field on which the game of life happens. 
It cannot happen anywhere else. 

 Once you have made peace with the present moment, see what happens, 
what you can do or choose to do, or rather what life does through you. 

There are three words that convey the secret of the art of living,
 the secret of all success and happiness: 
One With Life.
 Being one with life is being one with now. 
You then realize that you don't live your life,
 but life lives you. Life is the dancer,
 and you are the dance.



~ Eckhart Tolle
from A New Earth





Monday, July 6, 2020

the exhibit










My uncle in East Germany
points to the unicorn in the painting
and explains it is now extinct.
We correct him, say such a creature
never existed. He does not argue,
but we know he does not believe us.
He is certain power and gentleness
must have gone hand in hand
once. A prisoner of war
even after the war was over,
my uncle needs to believe in something
that could not be captured except by love,
whose single luminous horn
redeemed the murderous forest
and, dipped into foul water,
would turn it pure. This world,
this terrible world we live in,
is not the only possible one,
his eighty-year-old eyes insist,
dry wells that fill so easily now.





 ~  Lisel Mueller
from Alive Together: New and Selected Poems

art: tapestry from the middle ages. Designed in Paris about 1500,
 are considered to be some of the greatest surviving masterpieces
 of medieval European art. They depict a lady flanked by a lion
 and a unicorn, surrounded by an enchanting world of animals, 
trees and flowers. One of the most intriguing aspects of these
 six large-scale artworks is the mystery of their origin and meaning.
 
with thanks to whiskey river


 

prayer








Whatever happens. Whatever
What is is is what
I want.  Only that.  But that.



~  Galway Kinnell



another night in the ruins






7

How many nights must it take
one such as me to learn
that we aren't, after all, made
from that bird that flies out of its ashes, 
that for us
as we go up in flames, our one work
is
to open ourselves, to be
the flames?



Galway Kinnell
 from Three Books





Sunday, July 5, 2020

lines written in the days of growing darkness






Every year we have been
witness to it: how the
world descends
into a rich mash, in order that
it may resume.
And therefore
who would cry out 

to the petals on the ground
to stay,
knowing, as we must,
how the vivacity of what was is married 

to the vitality of what will be?
I don’t say
it’s easy, but
what else will do 

if the love one claims to have for the world
be true?
So let us go on 

though the sun be swinging east,
and the ponds be cold and black,
and the sweets of the year be doomed.





~ Mary Oliver
photo by Eliot Porter



more kind?








Once a man came to me and spoke for hours about
“His great visions of God” he felt he was having.

He asked me for confirmation, saying,
Are these wondrous dreams true?”

I replied, “How many goats do you have?”
He looked surprised and said,
“I am speaking of sublime visions
And you ask
About goats!”

And I spoke again saying,
“Yes, brother – how many do you have?”

“Well, Hafiz, I have sixty-two.”

“And how many wives?”

Again he looked surprised, then said,
“Four.”

“How many rose bushes in your garden,
How many children,
Are your parents still alive,
Do you feed the birds in winter?”

And to all he answered.

Then I said,
“You asked me if I thought your visions were true,
I would say that they were if they make you become
More human,

More kind to every creature and plant
That you know.



~ Hafiz
from The Gift: Poems by the Great Sufi Master




 

Saturday, July 4, 2020

cummings and chopin









~ art by e.e. cummings