heaven is only present

.

Hell is timely, for Hell is the thought

that Hell will go on, on and on, without end.

Heaven is only present, instantaneous and eternal,

a mayfly, a blue dayflower, a life entirely given,

complete forever in its hour.

~ Wendell Berry

from Leavings

silent in the moonlight

.

Silent in the moonlight, no beginning or end.

Alone, and not alone.  A man and a woman lie

On open ground, under an antelope robe.

They sleep under animal skin, looking up

At the old, clear stars.  How many years?

The robe thrown over them, rough

Where they sleep.  Outside, the moon, the plains

Silent in the moonlight, no beginning or end.

~ Robert Bly

from Talking into the Ear of a Donkey

a sybil

.

Long before our time they called her old,

But she'd walk down the same road every day.

Her age became too much to say

In years — and, like a forest's, would be told 

In centuries. She comes to stand at dusk — 

Her spot each time the same — and to foretell.

She is a hollow, wrinkled husk,

Dark as a fire-gutted citadel. 

She has to turn her flock of talking loose

Or it will grow too crowded to relieve.

Flapping and screaming, words are flying all 

Around her. Then, returning home to roost,

They find a perch beneath her eyebrows' eaves,

And in that shadow wait for night to fall.

~ Rainer Maria Rilke

art by picasso

non-violence

.

Non-violence is perhaps the most exacting of all forms of struggle, 

not only because it demands first of all that one be ready to suffer evil 

and even face the threat of death without retaliation, 

but because it excludes mere transient self-interest, 

even political, from its considerations.

 ~ Thomas Merton

shark's teeth

.

Everything contains some

silence.  Noise gets

its zest from the

small shark's-tooth-

shaped fragments

of rest angled

in it. An hour

of city holds maybe

a minute of these

remnants of a time

when silence reigned,

compact and dangerous

as a shark.  Sometimes

a bit of a tail

or fin can still

be sensed in parks.

~ Kay Ryan

from The Best of It

born at each moment into the everlasting newness

.

My gaze is clear as a sunflower.

My way is to walk the roads

Looking right and left

And sometimes looking behind me...

What I see at each moment

Is that which I never

Caught sight of before.

I have the knack of full awareness

The knack of essential astonishment

That an infant might experience

If at birth he were aware

That he was actually born!

I feel myself born at each moment

Into the everlasting newness

of the world.

I believe in the world

As I believe in a daisy

Because I see it.

But I do not think about it

Because to think is to not-understand.

The world was not made 

For us to think about it

(To think is to have sick vision)

But for us to look at it and assent.

I have no philosophy: I have senses ...

If I talk of nature, that is not because

I know what nature is

But because I love it, and love is for this only:

For he who loves never knows what he loves

Or why he loves, or what love is.

Loving is eternal innocence

And the only innocence is not-thinking.

~ Fernando Pessoa

from The Keeper of the Flocks

translated by Thomas Merton
art by van gogh

poetry of gratefulness

.

.

the book of Camp Branch

.

Camp Branch, my native stream,

forever unreturning flows

from the town down to Cane Run

which flows to the river.  It is 

my native descent, my native

walk, my native thought

that stays and goes, passing

ever downward toward the sea.

Its sound is a song that flings up

the light to the undersides of leaves.

Its song and light are a way

of walking, a way of thought

moved by sound and sight.

It flows as deep in its hollow

as it can go, far down as it has

worn its way. Passing down

over its plunder of rocks, it makes

an irregular music.  Here 

is what I want to know.  Here

is what I am trying to say.

O brave Ross Feld, here is

no "fortification against time."

Here the fort has fallen 

and the water passes its benediction

over the shards, singing!

How much delight I've known

in navigating down the flow

by stepping stones, by sounding

stones, by words too that are

stepping and sounding stones.

Going down stone by stone,

the song of the water changes,

changing the way I walk

which changes my thought

as I go.  Stone to stone

the stream flows.  Stone to stone

the walker goes.  The words

stand stone still until

the flow moves them, changing

the sound - a new word -

a new place to step or stand.

In the notch of Camp Branch

the footing changes, year

to year, sometimes

day to day, as the surges

of the stream move the rocks.

Every walk, as Archie Ammons

said, "is a new walk." And so

go slow.  Let the mind

step with the feet

as the stream steps

downward over the rocks,

nowhere anywhere

but where it is.

In the crease of its making

the steep stream gathers

the seeps that come silently

down from the wooded slants.

Only there at the rockbed

of the branch do the waters break

into light, into singing

of water flowing over rocks

which, in its motion, the water

moves.  And so, singing, the song

changes, moved by music

harsh and crude: splashes,

slubbers, chuckles, and warbles,

the hollow tones of a bell,

a sustained pour, the small

fall steady as a column.

Sometimes, gentled, if you

stand while it flows, it seems

to meditate upon itself

and the hill's long changing

under the sun and rain.

A changing song,

a changing walk,

a changing thought.

A sounding stone,

a stepping stone,

a word

that is a sounding and a stepping

stone.

A language that is a stream flowing

and is a man's thought as he 

walks and thinks beside the stream.

His thoughts will hold

if the words will hold, if each

is a stone that will bear weight,

placed by the flow

in the flow.  The language too

descends through time, subserving

false economy, heedless power,

blown with the gas of salesmanship,

rattled with the sale of needless war,

worn by the mere unhearing

babble of thoughtlessness,

and must return to its own 

downward flow by the flowing

water, the muttered syllables,

the measureless music, the stream

flowing and singing, the man

walking and thinking, balanced

on unsure footholds

in the flowing stream.

"Make sense," I told myself,

the song of the tumbling waters

in my ears.  The sense you make

may make its way along the stream,

but it will not be the stream's sense

you make, nor yet your own

quite, for the flux of language

will make its claim too

upon your walk, upon the stream.

The words fall at last

onto the page, the turning leaf

in the Book of Camp Branch

in time's stream.  As the eye,

as the mind, moves from

moving water to turning page,

what is lost?  What, worse,

is lost if the words falsify

the stream in your walk beside it?

To be carried or to resist

you must be a stone

in the way.  You must be

a stone rolled away.

The song changes by singing

into a different song.

It sings by falling.  The water

descending in its old groove

wears it new.  The words descending

to the page render the possible

into the actual, by wear,

for better or worse, renew

the wearied mind.  This is only

the lowly stream of Camp Branch,

but every stream is lowly.

Only low in the land does 

the water flow.  It goes

to seek the level that is lowest,

the silence that gathers

many songs, the darkness

made of many lights,

and then by the sun is raised

again into the air.

~ Wendell Berry

from Leavings

art by Norma Herring

to see, to hear, to hold, more carefully

.

O saints, if I am even eligible  for this prayer,

though less than worthy of this dear desire,

and if your prayers have influence in Heaven,

let my place there be lower than your own.

I know how you longed, here where you lived 

as exiles, for the presence of the essential

Being and Maker and Knower of all things.

But because of my unruliness, or some erring

virtue in me never rightly schooled,

some error clear and dear, my life

has not taught me your desire for flight:

dismattered, pure, and free.  I long

instead for the Heaven of creatures, of seasons,

of day and night.  Heaven enough for me 

would be this world as I know it, but redeemed 

of our abuse of it and one another.  It would be

the Heaven of knowing again.   There is no marrying

 in Heaven, and I submit; even so, I would like

 to know my wife again, both of us young again,

and I remembering always how I loved her

when she was old.  I would like to know

my children again, all my family, all my dear ones,

to see, to hear, to hold, more carefully

than before, to study them lingeringly as one

studies old verses, committing them to heart

forever.  I would like again to know my friends,

my old companions, men and women, horses

and dogs, in all the ages of our lives, here

in this place that I have watched over all my life

in all its moods and seasons, never enough.

I will be leaving how many beauties overlooked?

A painful Heaven this would be, for I would know

by it how far I have fallen short.  I have not

paid enough attention, I have not been grateful

enough.  And yet this pain would be the measure

of my love.  In eternity's once and now, pain would

place me surely in the Heaven of my earthly love.

~ Wendell Berry

from Leavings

your very flesh shall be a great poem

.

.

This is what you shall do; 
Love the earth and sun and the animals, 
despise riches, 
give alms to every one that asks, 
stand up for the stupid and crazy, 
devote your income and labor to others, 
hate tyrants, 
argue not concerning God, 
have patience and indulgence toward the people, 
take off your hat to nothing known or unknown

 or to any man or number of men, 
go freely with powerful uneducated persons 

and with the young and with the mothers of families, 
read these leaves in the open air every season

 of every year of your life, 
re-examine all you have been told at school

 or church or in any book, 
dismiss whatever insults your own soul, 
and your very flesh shall be a great poem 

and have the richest fluency not only in its words 
but in the silent lines of its lips and face

 and between the lashes of your eyes 
and in every motion and joint of your body.

~ Walt Whitman
 from the preface of Leaves of Grass

surrendering, lose myself in your loosened hair

 

 

Someday, emerging at last from the violent insight,

let me sing out jubilation and praise to assenting angels.

Let not even one of the clearly-struck hammers of my heart

fail to sound because of a slack, a doubtful,

or a broken string.  Let my joyfully streaming face

make me more radiant; let my hidden weeping arise

and blossom.  How dear you will be to me then, you nights 

of anguish.  Why didn't I kneel more deeply to accept you,

inconsolable sisters, and, surrendering, lose myself

in your loosened hair.  How we squander our hours of pain.

How we gaze beyond them into the bitter duration

to see if they have an end.  Though they are really

our winter-enduring foliage, our dark evergreen,

one season in our inner year -, not only a season

in time -, but are place and settlement, 

foundation and soil and home.

~ Rainer Maria Rilke

from Duino Elegies, The Tenth Elegy

translation by stephen mitchell

art by van gogh

my soul heard something

.

What was in that candle's light

that opened and consumed me so quickly?

Come back, my friend! The form of our love

is not a created form.

Nothing can help me but that beauty.

There was a dawn I remember

when my soul heard something

from your soul. I drank water

from your spring and felt

the current take me.

~ Rumi

from The Essential Rumi

translation by Coleman Barks

the vast man

.

But sweeter still than laughter and greater than longing came to me.

It was the boundless in you;

The vast man in whom you are all but cells and sinews;

He in whose chant all your singing is but a soundless throbbing.

It is in the vast man that you are vast,

And in beholding him that I beheld you and loved you.

For what distances can love reach that are not in that vast sphere?

What visions, what expectations and what presumptions can outsoar that flight?

Like a giant oak tree covered with apple blossoms is the vast man in you.

His might binds you to the earth, his fragrance lifts you into space, and in his durability you are deathless.

~ Kahlil Gibran

from The Prophet

photo by Jack Spenser

the beginning of terror

.

For beauty is nothing

but the beginning of terror, which we still are able to endure,

and we are so awed because it serenely disdains

to annihilate us.

~  Rainer Maria Rilke

from Duino Elegies, The First Elegy

puppet play

.

My body lives in the city,

But my essence dwells in the mountains.

The affairs of a puppet play

Are not to be taken too seriously.

When the polar mountain fits into a mustard seed,

All the words in the universe may as well be erased.

My mind is like a jade jar of ice,

Never invaded by even half a mote of dust.

Though the jade jar be obscured without,

I pay no mind at all -

On the terrace of Immortals,

I climb straight to the highest level.

~ Wu Cailuan (9th century)

from Immortal Sisters: Secret Teachings of Taoist Women

photo by Ansel Adams