At the high-tide of night, when the first breath of dawn
came upon the wind, the Forerunner, he who calls himself echo to a voice yet
unheard, left his bed-chamber and ascended to the roof of his house. Long he stood and looked down upon the
slumbering city. Then he raised his
head, and even as if the sleepless spirits of all those asleep had gathered
around him, he opened his lips and spoke, and he said:
“My friends and my neighbors and you who daily pass my gate,
I would speak to you in your sleep, and in the valley of your dreams I would
walk naked and unrestrained; far
heedless are your waking hours and deaf are your sound-burdened ears.
“Long did I love you and overmuch.
“I love the one among you as though
he were all, and all as if you were one.
And in the spring of my heart I sang in your gardens, and in the summer
of my heart I watched at your threshing-floors.
“Yea, I loved you all, the giant
and the pygmy, the leper and the anointed, and him who gropes in the dark even
as him who dances his days upon the mountains.
“You, the strong, have I loved,
though the marks of your iron hoofs are yet upon my flesh; and you the weak,
though you have drained my faith and wasted my patience.
“You, the rich have I loved, while
bitter was your honey to my mouth; and you the poor, though you knew my
empty-handed shame.
“You the poet with the borrowed
lute and blind fingers, you have I loved in self indulgence; and you the
scholar, ever gathering rotted shrouds in potters’ fields.
“You the priest I have loved, who
sit in the silences of yesterday questioning the fate of my tomorrow; and you
the worshipers of gods the images of your own desires.
“You the thirsting woman whose cup
is ever full, I have loved you in understanding; and you the woman of restless
nights, you too I have loved in pity.
“You the talkative have I loved,
saying, ‘Life hath much to say’; and you the dumb have I loved, whispering to
myself, ‘Says he not in silence that which I fain would hear in words?’
“And you the judge and the critic,
I have loved also; yet when you have seen me crucified, you said, ‘He bleeds
rhythmically, and the pattern his blood makes upon his white skin is beautiful
to behold.’
“Yea, I have loved you all, the
young and the old, the trembling reed and the oak.
“But alas! It was the
over-abundance of my heart that turned you from me. You would drink love from a cup, but not from
a surging river. You would hear love’s
faint murmur, but when love shouts you would muffle your ears.
“And because I have loved you all
you have said, ‘Too soft and yielding is his heart, and too undiscerning is his
path. It is the love of a needy one, who
picks crumbs even as he sits at kingly feasts.
And it is the love of a weakling, for the strong loves only the strong.’
“And because I have loved you
overmuch you have said, ‘It is but the love of a blind man who knows not the
beauty of one nor the ugliness of another.
And it is the love of the tasteless who drinks vinegar even as wine. And
it is the love of the impertinent and the overweening, for what stranger could
be our mother and father and sister and brother?
“This you have said, and more. For often in the marketplace you pointed your
fingers at me and said mockingly, ‘There goes the ageless one, the man without
season, who at the moon hour plays games with our children and at eventide sits
with our elders and assumes wisdom and understanding.’
“And I said ‘I will love them
more. Aye, even more. I will hide my love with seeming to hate, and
disguise my tenderness as bitterness. I will wear an iron mask, and only when
armed and mailed shall I seek them.’
“Then I laid a heavy hand upon your
bruises, and like a tempest in the night I thundered in your ears.
“From the housetop I proclaimed you
hypocrites, Pharisees, tricksters, false and empty earth-bubbles.
“The short-sighted among you I
cursed for blind bats, and those too near the earth I likened to soulless
moles.
“The eloquent I pronounced
fork-tongued, the silent, stone-lipped, and the simple and artless I called the
dead never weary of death.
“The seekers after world knowledge I
condemned as offenders of the holy spirit and those who would naught but the
spirit I branded as hunters of shadows who cast their nets in flat waters and
catch but their own images.
“Thus with my lips have I denounced
you, while my heart, bleeding within me, called you tender names.
“It was love lashed by its own self
that spoke. It was pride half slain that
fluttered in the dust. It was my hunger
for your love that raged from the housetop, while my own love, kneeling in
silence, prayed your forgiveness.
“But behold a miracle!
“It was my disguise that opened
your eyes, and my seeming to hate that woke your hearts.
“And now you love me.
“You love the swords that stride
you and the arrows that crave your breast.
For it comforts you to be wounded and only when you drink of your own
blood can you be intoxicated.
“Like moths that seek destruction
in the flame you gather daily in my garden: and with faces uplifted and eyes
enchanted you watch me tear the fabric of your days. And in whispers you say the one to the other,
‘He sees with the light of God. He
speaks like the prophets of old. He
unveils our souls and unlocks our hearts, and like the eagle that knows the way
of foxes he knows our ways.’
“Aye, in truth, I know your ways,
but only as an eagle knows the ways of his fledglings. And I fain would disclose my secret. Yet in my need for your nearness I feign
remoteness, and in fear of the ebb-tide of your love I guard the floodgates of
my love.”
After saying these things the
Forerunner covered his face with his hands and wept bitterly. For he know in his heart that love humiliated
in its nakedness is greater that love that seeks triumph in disguise; and he
was ashamed.
But suddenly he raised his head,
and like one waking from sleep he outstretched his arms and said, “Night is
over, and we children of the night must die when dawn comes leaping upon the
hills; and out of our ashes a mightier love shall rise. And it shall laugh in the sun, and it shall
be deathless.”
~ Kahlil Gibran
from Poems, Parables and Drawings